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Saturday,
Jan 26, 2008
Forgive me for taking the liberty
to share these thoughts with all of you on the Shelsi Sentinel
website, since it isn't only about Shelsi. But when I read her
blog update I was
compelled to write this. Her new blog entry, walks us through
that first day of her diagnosis - one year ago yesterday. Very
compelling reading I might add! Below are my thoughts on this
very interesting subject of Anniversary Syndrome.
Anniversary Syndrome
It's called Anniversary Syndrome - caused
by the often unexpected and uncontrollable emotions that occur
on or around the anniversary dates of traumatic events. I became
aware of this syndrome a year after I found the lifeless body
of my 3-month-old baby daughter Kandyse in her crib - a victim
of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. The date was January 5 1988.
Every year during the holidays since that
devastating day, I feel a deep unreachable longing. My arms ache
to hold my baby again and my mind wonders what path her mortal
life would have taken if she were still here. Twenty years later,
in 2008, for a week during the holiday season, I found myself
struggling for the will to survive. Another child of mine had
been battling cancer for almost a year and during one of the most
difficult emotional episodes of my life, I believe that the spirit
of that precious baby I've longed to hold again for twenty years,
was holding me.
The inexplicable link between the world
of the seen and the unseen has been revealed to me on many occasions
throughout my life verifying to me beyond any doubt that we are
not just these bodies. Our spiritual bodies are actually far more
vast and complex. And even though the greatest scientists of our
time have yet to unlock all the mysteries of physical man, unlocking
the keys to spiritual man (something I believe is right around
the corner in the realm of scientific research) is bound to blow
the sox off some skeptics.
As Shelsi, battles the mortal disease
of cancer and her life hangs precariously in the balance between
the finest knowledge of modern medicine and the miraculous healing
power of our Creator, I cling to what I know to be true; we are
here on this planet to do all we can to perpetuate love, joy and
peace and SHE has done that since the day she was born. And when
WE do ALL that we can do, the unseen angelic forces just beyond
our view will continue to fill in the gaps to bring about the
miracles that occur on a daily basis. The world within own minds,
the hosts of heaven within the reach of our own hearts and this
very moment - right now - is all we have.
Anniversary Syndrome, which now Shelsi
has experienced first hand, yesterday, January 25, 2008 being
the 1st anniversary of her cancer diagnosis, allows us to face
the demons of our past - the haunting memories of nightmares that
turned out to be real and to turn them into wisdom and understanding
to share with others. It can help us prepare for an unknown future,
or help us connect with those we think we may have lost. I know
they are never lost. I know the essence of who we are, our Divine
Spirit, lives on, eternally.
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