| [Monday, April 9, 2007] Hey Everyone! I just read all the new messages
and am filled with so much love and gratitude. I wish so much that
there was something I could do or say to show you all how much I
appreciate your love and concern. You are all amazing people and
I am blessed to know you or just to have read your sweet words of
inspiration. It would be so wonderful when I am free of cancer and
back to my normal self if we could all have a huge celebration and
reunion! That way I could meet all the wonderful people that I only
know through words on this website and see friends and family I
haven't seen in a long time. Anyways, it's so nice to be feeling
better! I know it is because of all of your prayers so I thank you
all! To share a little deeper part of me with you all, I have been
pretty emotional these past few days. My eyes are already filling
with tears just thinking about this. I truly believe that I needed
to get really sick this past week because through it, I have grown
closer to my Savior and I have seen deeper into my amazing parents
souls than I ever have. I was able to watch a movie about Jesus
Christ called The Testaments on Easter with my sweet husband. It
was amazing! It is so humbling to know that the Savior has felt
the pain I've felt and knows exactly what I am going through. I
have felt His embrace and know of His love for me and every single
one of us. It is hard to imagine that that is possible but it brings
me great comfort to have that faith that has been instilled inside
of me. Mom, I know how much you wish you lived closer so you could
come take care of me more. Just know, though, that all you have
done and are doing mean the world to me. You always make sure I
am doing well and it is a blessing to know that you would drop everything
and drive all the way out here if I needed you to. You make me feel
so loved. I am grateful for the research you do to find out information
for me about my cancer and things I can do to help my body be strong
and fight. Everyday that you come out to see me to take me out to
lunch if I'm up to it, or make me lunch and help me with my cleaning
if I'm not feeling well, I will cherish forever. I am grateful for
the updates you do to let friends and family know how I am doing
and for letting them know if I am in need of anything when they
ask. I love you so much, mom! You are an amazing example to me of
charity and unconditional love, as is dad. Thank you for always
being there for me. Dad, I just read your letter to me again and
it made me cry, like it always does. I love your daily phone calls
and texts. You make me feel so special when you call just to tell
me how much you love me and that you are thinking of me. You always
tell me about new people you've met or people you already know that
are praying for me and I am so grateful for that. I am so happy
I got to see you at Kira and Andrew's to have dinner. That was the
weekend I started getting sick but I know it helped to be around
you and everyone and have some good laughs (Eric's electronic whoopee
cushion) and talks. We have to do it again soon! I look forward
to the day when we can record in your studio again. Thank you for
giving me such a strong love for music and singing. I miss singing
so much but have the faith that I will be able to sing again soon!
Thank you for being such a wonderful dad! You and mom are such wonderful
examples of people who don't judge others and I hope I can be that
kind of example too. You both see people for who they really are
and you choose to see the good in them and that is so refreshing
and inspiring. I love you all and thank you from the bottom of my
heart. Shelsi 
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